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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

i finished reading battle royale, all 620-something pages of it! wow, it really something else, that's for sure. kinda lame, but i was in a spot of trouble for my science exam because of it... it's probably the most unputdownable thing i've ever read next to like harry potter.
best book i've read this year! okay.. i know that's not exactly saying much since it january - but still!

i don't think i've ever read anything this pulpy, or well, anything pulpy at all and the ending was kind of predictable. but maybe that's 'cause i accidentally *cough* read some revealing details.
well, i won't spoil it for you in case you wanna take it on.
has anyone watched the movie? because i'd really like to see it, but knowing what happens, i'm scared i won't be able to stand it.

now that the science exam is over, i'm not studying for any of my other ones. they should be easy enough and if not, oh well. i really need to focus on violin or else it would be $300+ down the drain. and then i'd have to take it again, and that would be another $300 out the window.
henceforth, life will only consist of:

violin
sleeping
eating
piddly diddly department
reading (occasionally)
taking exams

i believe i've covered everything (and that's also why i've shamelessly deleted my facebook. sorry 'bout that). so basically, i am putting my self on
~~love~~ lockdown. hahaha, je suis desolée, i couldn't resist c:

see y'all when this mess is over & i get my life back.

i'll show you what it's all about

Thursday, January 15, 2009

finally started using my last.fm account yesterday! kind of late, i know, since i joined ages ago, but at least i'm using it now c:
add me, my name is modasaur! maybe you'll recommend me some new music, and i'd be quite grateful for that. i'm not necessarily dying for some new material, but it always helps!

on another note, i've gone & gotten myself a weheartit account (since ffffound is exclusive). it's for visual bookmarking and i haven't started yet, since i have a CT essay pending. but it looks really neat, and cute... so, errrm, join if you haven't. add me if you get/have an account, my username/"heart" (as they call it) is debbie. hahaha, i love that no one has taken it yet, i was ridiculously surprised.

okay, insanely boring education spiel up ahead, here goes -

on to what's dominating everyone's minds right now - or at least mine: course selection, a.k.a. your future.
i honestly have no idea exactly what i want to be. i know of some careers that i might be interested in/leaning towards, but nothing that i actually have my heart set on. therefore, i haven't the faintest on what i should take; all i know is that there's some i definitely don't want to sit through everyday for a semester (i.e. accounting, anything to do with computers, etc.).

so course selection was due today and i had nothing on the sheet except for my mandatories, being:

french
english
religion
math

(all above are U, unless there wasn't one offered at all).
i ended choosing my courses half asleep this morning and discussing them with my mother for about 5 minutes and after which time, she had to commute. there wasn't really enough time to choose anything really. my councilor, after hearing that i'd no idea what my future career would be, said i should keep my doors open by choosing 2-3 sciences and math U. if you don't know me well enough, math is the subject i am most horrid at and i despise most.
math & i have a hate/hate relationship, although i managed to scrape by last year in the high-70s by cramming everything from september in 3 days.

i was discussing what i could possibly be with my parents, and they suggested becoming a diplomat/ambassador after hearing what i'm interested in/enjoy doing:

debating
politics, to some extent
history
writing/reading
traveling
languages

i actually wouldn't mind becoming a diplomat/ambassador! i guess there's some risks if i'm chosen to be a liaison between 2 countries that hate each other, but then no country really hates canada that much. so i circled some courses, but not all 8, and handed it in to skrak, who didn't count how many i chose (luckily).
then i had an appointment with the councilor and told her how i was interested in this and she asked what i chose on the form, which was

law
psychology/anthro/sociology
instrumental music
presentation & speaking

it turns out that i couldn't have chosen better courses for this future career path. not too sure if i wanna become an ambassador/diplomat though since it takes years and years to get to being an ambassador and in the meantime, you have to work in a low position. i guess i'll have to get a 2nd job, like a lawyer or something, since most high-ranking government people take law.
i might take bachelor of arts degree and then go to law school... or something.

i'd like to go to university abroad, but that's not happening unless we come into a boatload of money or i get a scholarship. it's always been my dream to go to oxford, but there's always also

utm/u of t
harvard, yale, dartmouth, princeton - the ivy league (hahahaha, NOT HAPPENING)
u of ottawa
hogwarts (YESSSSS MYLIFELONG DREAMZZ_____)

if i started music earlier, i definitely want to pursue that despite the fact that i'd be a starving artist, or whatever. as long as i love what i do and am passionate about it, it would really be enough. i don't care if doesn't pay well or pay at all. then i'd want to go to JUILLARD (my dream ♥) or utm/u of t's music college, or london's royal academy of music.

baaaahhhhhumbug.
i'll have it figured out by end of 2nd semester this year, hopefully. in the meantime, i've seriously got to study for exams. and the violin exam, or that'll be $200 down the drain.

i do love you tender

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

amazing. i just found out that this song's the same as the one we're doing for our music CT.

i am extremely tempted to take the shortcut and copy the B section since i'm pretty sure my teacher doesn't know these 2 songs are the same... but i'm pretty sure he knows "love me tender." if not, all i would say is - zomg.
but he hasn't mentioned they're similar unless he's saving it for the end or whatever. unless he never noticed?

farewell 2008

Monday, January 12, 2009

violin. iceland. coffee house. wonderland. summer. lolita. the dark knight. summer school. missing buses. gloomy bear cupcakes. crepes. yellow school bus bags. stephenie meyer's book signing. HNM(!). long coats. cellphones. willow trees. marcellinus. half lockers. snowglobes. downtown toronto. joe's. hallowe'en 07/08. bubble tea. masquerade ball. walking to starbucks. partying. rip n's mac. cne. wet socks. high school dance. pizza. usb keys. blizzards. 8 snow days. pacman. walking in the rain with your bffs. christian angelo. sjbb boys. losing/finding iPod, cell, ds. rock band. safari girl. pirate. arashi. skiing. hellogoodbye. co-ed. essays. all-girls'. aching arms/legs. barack obama. culture shock. vampire weekend. pudding contest. ryerson university. marching band. string ensemble. ff's first store. greek. zebras. electric guitars. gonzaga. late friends. detentions. flute. the beatles. nautical. pho. pep rally. brokeback mountain. eaton centre. high standards. civvies. christmas parties. gaspard ulliel. little night music. wii. i kissed a girl. love is the movement. failed band planning. baby, it's fact. urbandictionary. dreams realized. CHANGE.

i probably forgot some super important ones, but i'm growing old, alright?! and i know some of these are technically from 2007, but they're part of the 08 school year, so don't be jumping down my throat.