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Saturday, February 14, 2009

can anyone read, anyone feel
Friday, February 6, 2009

more academic rambling :| but i just need to get it out of my system.
my parents didn't really say much about my report but i could tell they were just the teensiest disappointed with my average... well, compared to last semester's, which was 90.5%.

so here were the marks for mid-terms and finals:
  • music - 90/91
  • business - 94/93
  • science - 81/82
  • english - 97/93

now my average ended up not even in the 90s (89.8%)! so close! i got a 100 on the music exam but it only riased my mark by 1%. asdfghjkl!!
well, i have a relatively easy, albeit mind numbingly boring semester 2. my first 3 classes are all in the same hallway in the 3rd floor, and last period in a portable.
i have, honestly, the most boring subjects imaginable - careers, religion, french, math. i do enjoy french but it's not explosively fun and like i said, french at this school is way below hnm's standards. it's easy marks but then it makes it soooo dull.

these subjects would really be all that bad if they had the right teacher and the right students in it. religion is always boring, there's nothing to be done about that seeing as i've read the bible already... KIDDING.
but um, anyone who goes to church every week as i've done for all my life, would know everything there is to know about the bible stories. the rest is just common sense.
careers could've been interesting if i had the right teacher, but i don't! i tried changing it with guidance but they said they weren't allowed, so i'll have to stick with it!

math is fast becoming my favorite period - i hate/despise/loathe/[insert synonym] it still but my teacher is so awesome and the people in it are da bomb bahahahah. i'm gonna have to do my homework e-v-e-r-y-day so i don't almost fail like i did last year. and then ended up having to do a 1 week cram session for everything from september so that the exam would save me.

3C lunch is horror & merde but i've found some people to sit with so hopefully we'll get closer as the (half) year goes by. they seems pretty fun, so at least it won't be awkward.
i really miss certain people and i only catch glimpses of them. AAAAAA what to do?!

another note, got a new violin (for now) and i'll be pretty occupied with that for a while. it's loud, expensive and beautiful - i hope i get to keep it!
i'll be on the edge until... um, forever really, if i don't get my violin exam marks.

valentine's day is coming up & i honestly like how it's such a cute holiday but it's stupid really. i celebrate for the saint, not commercialism c: but it is a very cute holiday. i know some people are in a dilemma for it, but at least i'm free from that.

books to read
  • count of monte cristo by alexandre dumas
  • battle royale by koushun takami
  • the lovely bones by alice sebold
  • RE-READ: the little prince by antoine saint-exupéry
  • le petit prince by the same author
  • READ & SUBMIT REVIEW: privilege by kate brian
  • the tale of the body thief by anne rice
  • RE-READ: catcher in the rye by j.d. salinger
  • alice in wonderland by lewis carroll

the many ways i've tried
Monday, February 2, 2009

after a somewhat eye-opening heart-to-heart with - ahem - (we'll just call him) S, i've more unsure than ever before about my courses. i mean all this time, i haven't been really taking any courses i'm absolutely passionate about. well, except music but i took it for the credit and not just to enjoy.

now i really want to take law, music and psych/anthro/socio but i know they're not exactly needed as prerequisites for any grade 12 courses, but i still want to take them because i know i'd be really into it, enjoy and possibly do well at it.

after that talk with S though, i'm not so sure. i mean, do i really have to take music? i'd love to, but i'm not fooling anyone if i say i'll become a musician when i'm older. it's just... not in the cards for me at all. i love it more than anything in the world but sometimes love can't conquer all. sorry to depress you, but i'm a realist and not an idealist in that respect.
so perhaps i should just take 2 or 3 sciences? in order to open more doors i suppose, but the problem is science was my weakest subject from semester 1. it wasn't even close to any of my other marks (as proven from what i found today). also, if i decide to pursue a career in sciences, it won't be an easy road since neither science nor math (ugh!!) come naturally to me.

anyway, enough about that.
a lot of other things have happened these past few days... well, weeks, i guess i should say. i had my violin exam and other exams but i guess a run through of those is unnecessary.
all i can say i my heart aches for my old classes, and the people in them - some make me bleed for them but what can i/we do? the world has to move forward whether you want it to or not.
hopefully, i can change something about my 2nd semester classes though but i haven't come up with an excuse yet.
french is so nasty, all we play are likkle games that are so childish and MAN, makes me miss hnm's rigorousness just a bit, but mostly mr. m who was the best motorcycling, slavedriving badass of a senior citizen/french teacher there ever was. and also the awesomest!

tomorrow - 1st day of band after more than a month, hope they are there!
wednesday - n: do not forget our plans, pack yourself some cash just in case, IOU money too. please remind me D:

i will be quite restless until i find out my violin marks which might not come until a month from last tuesday. i'll be bald or stress will kill me before that happens. ALSO - semester 1 marks! where are they? it almost makes me regret not attending review day. almost.
bahahahah sorry for the nonsensical over the placeness and academic theme of this entry. it was more for me than you, but if you read it... you are a (storm)trooper C:

debbie hernandez, 16.
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